One day I found myself entangled in numbers. Numbers that defined my size, my height, my weight, my speed, my agility, my children, my marriage. What is wrong with my world? There are moments I feel gratitude and joy. But other times, I remain entangled in numbers, locked in fear and frustration.
Will I ever escape this feeling?
How can life seem so beautiful, yet so brutal all at the same time?
It seems that as I go through life, everyone asks questions that revolve around numbers. When I was pregnant, the focus was the due date, what number child, and how much have you gained. Now that doesn’t appear to be anything life changing. However, pregnant or nursing for 10 years…yes that’s a number that opens your eyes. AND has had a massive impact on the numbers in my life.
Whether I was competing in the local Miss America pageants or being a mom to 1, 2, 3, 4, and now 5 children, I can never seem to escape the numbers. Applications required me to put my weight on the paper. I get a new driver’s license and it asks for more numbers too; my height included.
Why does it seem life revolves around numbers?
How old are you?
How long have you been at your job?
What year is your car?
What are the ages of your children?
What if I was to live my life without being entangled in numbers?
I would never age and the excuse of getting older would truly be “felt” verses “implied” due to my numbers. I might actually be able to enjoy the moments in life not worrying about how many years I’ve been trying to accomplish my goals; but truly relishing my journey!
Just thinking about my life in moments instead of numbers makes me smile. It brings a sense of “AWE-ness” to my world. I see the possibilities more clearly rather than fumbling through the excuses that hold me back and giving in to the numbers that appear to define my next step.
I never thought that numbers could affect my life so deeply.
So today, I pledge to see my life in moments. If I want to live a blissful life, there’s no more time to be entangled in numbers.
Will you join me in living your life free from numbers and focus on your talents, gifts, and relationships?
Life is too precious to waste away the day. This is your calling to see your potential in full motion, to see what you can achieve far from excuses. Open your eyes and create your NOW!
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